I found our daycare solution. It’s a center that is run by a local church. They have 8 infants and 2 people are always in the room with them. They also do little notes for the day for the parents so we know when they slept/ate/etc and have a “curriculum” to achieve developmental milestones. The play area is as large as my living room. Justin will have his own assigned crib with his own sheets as well as his own area in the diapering area for his supplies.
This morning was fabulous with him. He was smiling and responding to my expressions and little finger games. This afternoon he started cooing. Up until now, he makes noises but they tend to be more like cries or sighs. Lately, he’s been moving his mouth when I talk to him like he’s trying to converse with me. It was really sweet.
Now, however, is not so special. I thought we had escaped “happy hour” but this is the third night in a row that we’ve had a fussy, fussy baby from 6 until 9 or so. Not a trend I wanted to discover. I can get him quiet for a little while, but then he starts up again and there doesn’t have to be anything that sets him off. I’m getting over feeling like a complete failure when this happens. I still feel bad and wish I could “fix” whatever it is that is making him so unhappy, but if he’s crying to relieve stress or some other reason that I can’t control, then there’s nothing I can do except try to comfort him. Unfortunately, cuddling is kind of out tonight as the humidity and heat are factoring into his fussiness.
It’s hard to believe that I go back to work in two weeks…..I’m really going to miss the time I’ve had with him. Unfortunately, he’s the sweetest in the morning and afternoon. I’m hoping that I don’t miss all of that and only have the fussiness.